I feel like a failure. I’m doing an online class for the summer semester (Spanish). I was supposed to meet up in a virtual meeting today. It was 100 points. I forgot.
I wrote a reminder on my computer, but that didn’t help me since I didn’t open my computer until a half hour ago. I know I need to come up with a better way of doing this, but for now, I feel like absolute shit.
That’s a lot of fucking points to lose. Part of me wants to just drop the class.
I don’t even think that’s being dramatic. It’s been a week, and I’m already falling behind.
I hate this shit. I can’t even complete simple assignments, and what is the point?? What the fuck am I going to do with an English degree, anyway? I’ll probably still work for Starbucks. I’ll probably still hate everything about it. A degree will probably mean nothing.
I just really want to give up. I don’t think I’m going anywhere. I don’t think there’s a point. I’m failing as a human being. I’m incapable.
I want to sleep, but I just woke up from a nap (so I can’t fall back asleep) and the TV is super loud in the other room.
I’m exhausted and just want to numb out, but I don’t know how. I can’t escape.
I literally hate everything right now.